{ somewhere over the rainbow }

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

{ i love u }

alright , everytime when u c damn long posts in my blogs it means tt i type it out at nite in notepad den i copy and paste it to blogger . hmmm ... i normally does it in the middle of the nite when im alone & still awake and is when i will start to think about alot of things and also is when i can realli b myself , i no need to hide frm anyone den rite , i just b wad im , wad i feel , just simply myself . well , love the midnight larhs cuz i can cry and cry , think and think , without anyone knowing , even if i realli goin to slash , no one will noe or c it . hmmm. im tired , realli tired , tired fer pretending , tired fer excepting a new dae , i simply wants to escape frm all of these and let me stop at a time , well i would like to stop at somewhere where im a months old to one yrs old cuz during den i dunno anything , nothing at all and i wont grow up and face so many difficult things rite . haiish . ilovemychildhood (((((: lawls . who doesnt love deir childhood ?? hmmmm. yeah . things tt is in the past , is the past , now is now . hmmmm . well , tanya's new album good bye & hello , a well done one , the songs were fabulous (((: hear dem bahs . haiish . hmmm . must must must forget . must must must b strong . must must must b happie . must must must wake up . but when must i fuflfill each ?? infront of friends , happie & strong ?? infront of laopo & darling , my real self ?? happie ?? infront of parents , happie & strong ?? when must i be which . i dunno larhs . den in my blog who am i ?? happie , my real self or wad ?? i realli dunno how to present myself in all kinds of masks larhs . is difficult and when u r alone , u r so down cuz u hav to bear bck all ur sadness again after all those masks . ... sometimes i realli regret fer postin wad i realli feel and i realli feel sorry fer bu-shuanging . but hmmm sooooo ?? lawls . blehx . who even bothers to read it lorhs , so long , so lengthly , hahhas (((: broken english . bad example larhs . den when i bu-shuanging , people just ignores me and eventually .... hmmm ... come up with more things ... to add up my sadness ... why ?? saes tt i onli wan attention , if i cant attracts people's attention den i will feel unwanted & gets pissed off .... yahhhhhs ... if u were me .... wont u feel so too ... and is lyk after so many sadness ... i can pretend and be strong but i still do need someone to care fer me rite and when ur ignore me of course im angry cuz i need someone to care bout me rite . when u r sad , dont ur want someone to b by ur side , to hear u out , to support u .... huhhhhhs ?? u get it anot .... is nt tt i wan to is tt i need to .... u wont understand dehs larhs ... wad i think is so different frm wad ur thk ... i thk is alright ur thk is over ... why i wld talk to boys more and i the sense to ur is flirt cuz at least dey care bout me .... at least dere is someone which i can talk to rite .... haiish . wtf . ur just don get it ....

and flirts ... ur sucks to e core ... ur are cheaters & liars & fuckin .... ur can hav 10 or even more stead at a tym and alright ... ur think ur gt wad it takes to flirt rite .... please larhs ... if u r rich or shuai or wad , ur may hav wad it takes but still ur shldnt b wad ... no one in the world has wad it takes to flirt ... ur don respect urslef .... and don respect tt gal .... a guy saes he's flirting cuz to satisfy his hands & mouth . chee bai . is damn guo fen larhs . cant ur respect gals ?? just fer holdings hands and kissing , ur hurt tt gal ... do u noe how tt gal will suffers ... do ur noe .... if u wanna kiss & hold ur hands , go hold ur mum de and if u wanna kiss , kiss ur ass den . some more ur still plan it well out , tt gals cannot stay near each other so tt u will nt b keena caught and hav more gals to plae with ...... and tt guy saes to him , gals are simply clothes . wtf . flirts are realli ... argh ..... guo fen ... coward ... losers .... ur just sucks . but sadly love is blind . people do falls fer flirts . well .... gals b clever larhs , don b cheated ... i know is difficult but sooooo ?? u rather wanna b hurt directly or indirectly or lesser or more ?? ur think ... aiya .... i just dunno wad to sae le larhs ... tt guy was peter's fren ... hmmm ?? named joel .... a flirt .... kao bei .... he sucks larhs ... attitude problem ... i even hated when he flirt is to satisfy his hand and mouth . wtf . im sure gals will b lyk wtf or wad so ever if u c this post rite . haiish . flirts flirts flirts , stop flirting !! wtf . chee bai . ass hole . go fuck ur mum & kiss & sex ur mum lorhs , easier , can c almost everydae ?? nt saein as in ur shld realli go fuck ur mum but as in just stop it kayys ?? ur r hurting people ard u . it's bad and is sucking . just stop larhs ... and stop cheatin and lyin ..... just stop flirting !! wtf . chee bai . ass hole . kao bei . cowards , flirts , losers !!! chee bai ....

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